We heard back about the boys today. After trying to get ahold of social workers by myself, I asked our social worker from our agency to help us find out more about The Boys. We wanted to know if we might be a good match to be their family. As it turns out, the boys have an approved family pursuing them already. This is a PRAISE! I am so incredibly happy for them. So incredibly happy. Only thing is, my heart hurts a bit too. I had this sinking feeling when our social worker told me that, “if you were praying for the boys to have an excellent, happy, and loving family, then your prayers were answered. If you were praying that it would be your family, then I am very sorry.”
So, I will let go of all of those thoughts that I’ve had during the last two weeks. Thoughts of what our first vacation would be like with The Boys. Thoughts of shopping for a first car with Teenager. Thoughts of redecorating a bedroom for Only Boy and Brother. And, then there is the whole fact that I have to share this news with my kiddos after school today. I am dreading that. The tough thing about foster care and adoption is that we HAVE to involve our children. We have to ask them their opinions on things that will affect the rest of their lives. We have to ask, “Would you be willing to bring two more kids into this family? They might come with some baggage, bumps and bruises.” We have to involve them, but then when they say, “Yes! We want to do that,” and we look into it, well its just hard when the answer is, “no.”
So, there’s the story of The Boys. Its over. I pray we get to see them again someday! I pray we’ll run into them with their new family! That would be so awesome!